Blogger Mourns Death of Knoxville-Born Actor

I am so devastated. My once-future husband, Brad Renfro, was found dead in his Los Angeles apartment yesterday. I don't think the cause of death has been determined yet, but based on his history, I'm guessing it had something do to with drugs, probably heroin.

Why do I refer to him as my once-future husband, you might ask. Well, for about six months, in 1997, I was obsessed with Brad Renfro. I mean, literally OBSESSED. Which led me to do a number of things that I'm not proud of, but which I feel should be shared in memory of Brad.

1. In 1995, Brad had appeared in the Disney movie Tom and Huck with Jonathan Taylor Thomas (who would have been a heartthrob, had he not stopped growing at the age of eleven). During the spring semester of my freshman year of high school (1997), I bought a copy of this movie and watched it every single day when I got home from school. I usually rewinded Brad's scenes three or four times.

2. I spent hours on the Internet, trying to learn every single thing I could about Brad, so that, in the off-chance I ever "ran into him," we would have something to talk about. I resolved to watch A Clockwork Orange (which, according to the Internet was his favorite movie), so that we could discuss it when we met. Note: I still haven't seen that movie.

3. I printed endless pictures of Brad from the Internet, which I pasted onto all of my notebooks, for maximum viewing pleasure during class.

4. I forced my dad to drive me across town so that we could "cruise" the house where Brad grew up. Oh, and I got his address by searching through old phonebooks (from before he became famous).

5. I relentlessly badgered a girl in my English class, who claimed to have smoked weed with Brad on numerous occasions. Who knows whether she actually had, but she thought my Brad-covered notebooks were hilarious. She was probably high.

Do you believe me now, when I say that I was obsessed?

I guess we'll never know what could have been....